Yes... I know its no great feat...Im not curing cancer or anything...but even so...for me, being vulnerable can be really scary sometimes.
Maybe even every time.
What I know for sure is that nothing worth having ever comes by playing it safe. ALL good things come with a little healthy fear...our first kiss, driving a car for the first time, moving to a new city, taking a promotion, asking someone to marry you or saying yes to a proposal...that is some seriously scary stuff. But the reality is that it is impossible to grow or stretch without feeling the fear of the unknown. Its just part of the process.
For me, the good news is, that lately Ive come to realize that when I get that pit in the bottom of my stomach that quietly cripples my every move or even makes me want to run screaming in the other direction ...that feeling is my tell...my inner pilot light saying YES,this is what youve been waiting for! That is the moment that I know Im ON to something...REALLY on to something.
Slowly, Im learning to trust this feeling of fear as an indication that I am going in the right direction and if I just take a deep breath, close my eyes and leap, everything
will be o.k.
Recently, I have been reading a great book by the incredible Marianne Williamson called The Law of Divine Compensation, and she talks about how faith is not just a theological principal, but a mental and emotional muscle...something that we have to build and strengthen over time. When we learn to witness and harness our fear, it can become our greatest asset for self realization. Every time we step into our fear and wear it, however uncomfortable, it can be used as the fuel to push us through to our next level of greatness...and our faith gets just a little bit stronger.
So today...I am here...putting one finger in front of the other... writing to you. Tomorrow? Who knows...
What is it that scares YOU to death? What are you MOST afraid of? What would YOU do...if you found out that the cliff really wasnt that high?
I would almost bet that THAT is where you should begin. But dont take my word for it...try it on for yourself...maybe just maybe, if you can learn to wear your fear as an accessory to your faith, you just might find that it looks incredible on you.
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With Love and Light ( and a few butterflies),